After the congress, I and my other fellow sisters from my chapter and from Hamilton were being entrusted to our host for a night. As we arrived at our host’s house (tito Mel and Tita Lerma Ramos’ house), we just rest for a moment and a little chit-chat. As the chit-chat goes by Joy of Hamilton asked if we can introduce ourselves to our hosts. We do it starting with me, yours truly; though that I do have hoarse voice at that moment I still introduce myself to them. After the introduction, Tita Lerma Ramos as question to us that as of this moment I am still pondering on it because it’s a good reflection to me as a servant leader. The question was “Why did you decide to transfer YFL?”
Come to think of it, I don’t know what will be the proper answer to this question but there’s something in my heart telling me to continue my service. My heart told me you are the New Jonah that God was looking for. When my heart (I know that is God telling me that thing) told me that phrase and I start asking myself, Why me? Why I am the new Jonah? When he let me read the whole book of Jonah the minor prophet of the Old Testament, the whole book was the old me I turn back unto him do not so good vices; start being Emo thinking negative things in my life; and almost took my own life because of my earthly problems. When those things happened to me, I was being eaten by a big whale in my life. That big whale in my life was when I was being slain by a bad spirit. After that thing I made a vow to him as I had been called to be an anointed one to lead some people in my chapter way back in the Philippines.
Having a commitment or in other words service is not just being granted or for the sake of being chosen by other people to lead this people back to him. Being a Fisher of his Men is a great task for us who knows that we need to lead them. Like what Mr. Bo Sanchez said in his blog if we don`t serve we are not in heaven. In addition with that he also said to his bible that heaven and hell are just right here in our earth. If we do good things to our fellow brothers and sisters you are bringing heaven to their lives; in contrary, if you bringing bad things or doing bad things to them, you are bring hell to them. This means that being a fisher of God we should bring good things even though you are being hurt by others. If they smack you at your face give your whole body instead.
As we serve, we also get rewards. Not just earthly materials but heavenly rewards. As you do good things or serve him more you will receive abundance in your life but in other way around if you do bad things to your fellow brothers and sisters bad things will come back to you. Also as a leader we should not believe in luck, horoscope, or other superstitious things because you are God`s children not a children of superstition.
To end this thing up, just a small excerpt from a book that I`ve read after it`s movie fever. The phrase was being said by a vampire but it means to our service a lot here it is:
“And the LION fell in love with a LAMB”
As his servants, he is lamb and we are the lion who can be tame by him as we call him or even serve him.
“Lord, help us to be your faithful servant. Help us also to be your tame lion as we served you”
It seems to be that this thing will be impossible but there is one person who believe that we can change the world if we start the change inside of us and start spreading the news that we are one no matter what our race is, religion, and color. I know that this man that we idolize since then ( May he see the kingdom of heaven perfectly and may he rest in his paradise)do believe that we can change this world a better place to live to.
Honestly, I do really agree with him because even though we are different in colors, races, and beliefs but still we are one in the eyes of our creator. In addition with this, we are just equally rich in our creator's hands; however this time people nowadays are segregating themselves to other people. Somewhat some may agree some are not but let us face the truth that is happening to our world today. For example in the Philippines, though they are one in color and tradition but still there is discrimination. I am giving this country as my example because I know that there are a lot of Filipinos are being discriminated every single day of their living. I know that there's also a discrimination in different parts of the world but why do people always discriminate their fellow humans?
Another thing is why do people do not stop fighting I mean why they do not end wars? I think they just keep on thinking this is for the honor of my country blah...blah...blah....What a freaking thinking! They don't realize that there are a lot of people die because of this non-stop war. Remembering the war between Iraq and the US (spearheaded by George W. Bush, Jr.), It was a great shame for them because I was like a simple argument that can be fix through Peace Talks; unfortunately , they still continue the stupid war. I do not think that they are not thinking of what will be the consequences for the innocent people including the children who are living during those wars.
The another problem is poverty and hunger. As we all know that there are a lot of countries have enough food for their daily living but in some countries they are striving to have a food in front of their table at least for one meal. Why this thing should happen? I know that some of us just throw their excess in a trash bin or even feed it to their pets(For some countries). In poverty, in some countries, we can see people who are living in makeshift houses near rivers or streams. It is kind a painful to see our brothers and sisters in Christ living in a nice house striving for living.
This is a great disaster for this world. The world is being devastated by the scrupulous people who does not know how to see peoples perfectness. Currently, my heart is broken of what is going on to our mother nation. I know there are some leaders striving for a perfect world but sometimes they broke is because of some decision that they should make as a leader. I hope that one day we can see a lot of us are one, instead of holding guns or any other arms, we just hold tools for building houses, making farms for food, and share the blessing that they got.
As of this moment, I keep asking myself, when this freaking people stop looking others physical defects or even emotional defects to other people? When this world will be perfect? When will other people realize that we are one? I am still dreaming for a perfect world for my children and for my children`s children. Like what the man that I am talking about in my first paragraph, " Heal the world MAKE IT a BETTER place for you and for me and the entire human race. There are PEOPLE DYING if YOU CARE ENOUGH for living. MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE for you and for me"
WE ARE ONE! NO ONE CAN HELP THEMSELVES IF YOU DON'T HELP YOURSELF TO CHANGE! IF YOU CHANGE YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE.
These days,I do notice a lot of things that make our world bleed. I do not know why this circumstances happen but I know that we are being made equally and most especially with uniqueness. I know this is kind a ironic for a young adult to write down this circumstance but I want to voice this thing out because I know this is not appropriate. I know that all of us people here are aliens because the world (I mean the earth) belongs to the creator (I know that some are non-believers) but that's the truth. Some of us are born to be Christians and some are born to be in other religion.
In addition, we are also made in different colors and races and different ethnicity. I know that in different parts of the world especially where I grew up and learn things, discrimination prevails. I do believe that here also where I am currently living, discrimination happens too. I do not still know why discrimination should happen. I know that there's seniority when it becomes to educational status inside school, and even in the workforce. My question is WHY STILL PEOPLE IN THIS WOUNDED EARTH DISCRIMINATE EACH OTHER? this is kind a freaking question but still I know a lot of them will still do this thing.
This question kept on bugging me for ages; Not just only ages, centuries for those people who live in captivity. For me this world is full of darkness and other negativities that I can see. I don't know when will this filthy things will stop. To tell you honestly my dear followers, I am also part of those people who are being discriminated. I am being discriminated because of my physique, some negativity in my emotions, and my ethnicity as I apply for a well-paying job. I know that I am just being true to myself but still people discriminates me. That's why this question keeps on prevailing on my mind. I know that there's people do accept me but still I do feel that I am being discriminated.
Currently my perception in this world is this world is full of wounds and darkness. Furthermore, I always think that this world will not be as perfect as before. Like what the King of Pop's song "Heal the World" he always pointed out that we should make this world a better place for the entire human race who live in this big ball and yet that thing did not happened because of discrimination, war, hunger, super superiority, and other negatives that I can see, hear, and perceive. In his song also "Man in the Mirror" He also point out that each of us should start the change within ourselves but I know some of us are close-minded when it becomes to change.
Right this moment I am still wondering when will this change will start. I hope that I can see the light of change so that the next generation will see that real world that is full of acceptance, no one will be hungry and most especiall the utopia that everyone wants to see. I hope that time will come.
Nota para los lectores: I know that this is pure Spanish please bear with me because I am on a state where currently I am thinking Spanish and at the same time I am thinking English and Filipino. I am not so good Spanish speaker and writer I do use a translator so that my English writing will be translated into Spanish but some of phrases are being composed by yours truly. HAPPY READING…
Ahora mismo mi mente es un lío arriba. No sé lo que está ocurriendo en mi vida y el amor en mi corazón. Probablemente, todavía estoy a la vivienda dolor que he experimentado hace un año. Esperando ser sanado, este centro está situado en la preciosa suerte que me dio tanto. Pensé que le puede olvidar lo que yo hago muchas cosas pero no aquí. Actualmente, mi mente es mixta con dos lenguas extranjeras que sé que desde que era niño. No sé dónde tengo el coraje para escribir ahora. Esta bien! Esta bien! ¿Por qué esta jovencita mantener la reflexión sobre dos lenguas extranjeras, al mismo tiempo?
Recuerdo mi amore es muy hacer falla, pero este seniorita peparar perdonar y olvidar. Estoy dispuesto a conciliar con él y estoy dispuesto a enfrentarlo de una vez por todas. Tengo que reconocer que todavía amo a pesar de que tengo que dejarle ir. El amor parece ser complicado, pero que es parte de nuestra vida. Tenemos que ser lastimado y necesitamos también de enfrentar el dolor. No sé qué va a pasar con mi caótica vida sin este tipo que se llena la mitad de mi estancia allí que hago. Admito que tuve una falla, pero todavía estoy dispuesto a resolver estas cosas. Por que compadre? Por favor, dime lo que está mal.
Sé que tu todavía ver su Friendster si tiene tiempo, pero ni siquiera me da un mensaje en esta red social que conocemos. Mensaje que lo hago mucho, pero creo que estoy desperdiciando mi energía y mi idea de preocuparse por usted. Yo realmente se preocupan por usted, ya que se han reunido hasta la intimidad que tenemos con los demás. Todavía estoy en el dolor y hacer esta cosa ocultar mucho cuando estoy frente a mi trabajo, amigos y familiares. Yo ocultar esto a mí mismo. Cada día que me mudo a mi mente es flotante millas de distancia a preguntarse lo que está ocurriendo a usted.
Suspiro! Todavía no estoy en mí mismo. Yo ya había leído los testimonios que ya haya alguien pero no sé si es segura o no. Yo que cosa es cierta, voy a aceptar que con todo mi corazón, aunque mi corazón está sangrando mucho. Mi corazón sangra porque yo aún te amo. Sé que somos millas aparte, pero mi corazón todavía está en usted. Como los días pasan por este dolor me mata lentamente, pero segura. Tengo que reconocer que también me equivoqué. Sé que te duele tanto porque me fui tan temprano.
Sinceramente, ahora mismo no sé si puedo dormir dulcemente o no. Por favor, escuche mi grito! Escucha este corazón que sangra por ti! Si la suerte cambia, voy a estar siempre a su hermanita que se preocupa por ti.
Todavía confuso, pero ya he gritado mucho esta cosa a través de la escritura. No sé de dónde provienen de estas palabras, pero creo que mis ideas fueron dadas por Dios que yo hago la mayoría de la confianza.
“Hermano Jesús
Por favor, guía mi corazón, ya que se enfrentan al nuevo mundo de nuevo. De mayo, el chico que me gusta mucho escuchar mi grito como una nave en esta cosa a través de la escritura una prosa? Mayo de este destino o suerte será la suya a pie como yo con ustedes….Amen”
It seems to be that recently I've decided to listen to love songs again. I don't know why. After my painful moment of my life, I promise not to listen to love songs again. It seems to be that it's been a year that I never listen to any love songs again but right now, I am listening to love songs again. Funny but true to me. I don't know what struck on my mind to listen again to love songs. Right now I am listening to one of the songs of the Bee Gees.
Seems to be that a year of sorrow turns into a great joy on my part. I don't know why. Honestly, pain in my heart still lies on my heart (as usual) and the emotional wound is still on my part. I know that it is right to move on but for me I need years to move on. Frankly speaking I can relate to the song of the Bee Gees' "To Love Somebody". This song was so strong that I cannot stop listening to it. For me, I don't know what is the feeling to love another one again. I know that I am still thinking of the past but for me it is mix emotions.
I don't know what is the real sense of love as an individual. *Not as a servant* For me, service is different from being just an ordinary individual. Love is everywhere and you cannot resist it. I am still hoping that one day of my life there will be love again in my life. I know that God will bring me this person that I am waiting for. I will not find him, I will let him to look for me. Even though that seas and oceans are apart still I will wait for him.
It seems to be that this time my life was been cultivated again, but I am not saying that I am not prepared for that scenario of my life. It's hard to say when life will cultivate or bury in a wisp of air. Hard to predict what will happened on this life, but it should be done. Ungratefully but I have to face my fear again; a fear of long lasting goodness of this unlawful love. This time I was bothered of a lot of things. This things was composed of thousand questions that I do not know if this will be answered or will be left out hanging in a certain area of a cliff.
Though I was moving on, but still it was been cultivated. Right know I have a lot of questions to ask, but I do not really know if this is right or wrong. I know in school if you ask your teacher there's nothing wrong about your questions because your learning. In reality, there will be a great teacher who will tell you that your questions is whether right or wrong. Full of unchaste questions on my mind but I need to hold this things. I rather question myself first before questioning others. Right now I am in the middle of nowhere but still I have a great guide from up above.
I could not tell when will be the possible moment of my life can I ask this questions to a certain person. Still hoping for an enchanted time for me to ask this questions that right now is occurring in my mind and in my heart. Feeling anxious this time, I need to move and have a lot of things to do. Life seems to be unfair for all of us but we need to face this trials and fore fold this trials in our life. Probably we do have a lot of questions but we can keep that thing in our heart or lift those things as we move on.
As I serve my new community, I gain ups and downs. I know that it is like a roller coaster without an ending. I seek a lot of options where I should pour out my guilt deep inside. The guilt turned into discernment. This discernment prevails for months. I was so confused when this discernment prevails to my service.
Since the I seek for advices from different people, but still the discernment is there. Maybe this was not the right time for me to serve when my discernment is there. Recently, someone helps me to realize that I have a purpose to this world and my purpose as a servant and as a christian-catholic. I realize my purpose through the youtube video entitled "A Letter from Hell". Scary but true. This video has a deep meaning as a living testifier of God.
I realize that I cannot please everyone inside and out. I do also realize that this community still needs people who can understand what is the true essence of service. I think this is the real call for me to help them to learn and see who Jesus is.
To the people who help me to realize my purpose, thank you for making me realize that I have a purpose here.
"For as long as I shall live I will testify your LOVE I will be the witness when the words are not enough"
Perfect words used to be gone when you are seeking for good life. Though it is funny to say, still life say this thing. It's hard to find a new good life but years after she knows that she will have a good opportunity where she is right now.
She might be not a perfect person, still she wants to prove that she is not an inadequate person. Life for her is a great and monstrous world, yet a great school for living independently. Currently, her perfect words are spitting out. She doesn't know what will happen next. Perfectly said, thought, and written.
Probably, this is her first step to write again, but not in a notebook. For her, this is a great enigma why she lost her passion to write thoughts in good place.
Let her speak again, for she is speaking out. Let her beautiful thoughts be seen by others. Now is the time to let her words be seen. Right now, too many thoughts for her to shine.
Perfect words are willing to be out again. She is not a perfect author of her writings, but she raise this writings to the one who gave this talent. May this girl shine as she looks for inspiration to write again.
Let me tell you a story of Love and passion but it ended up into pain. By the way I am Protacio. I am just a merchant living in a small town of Florence. I am not just a simple merchant; I am a wandering merchant traveling around Florence and outside Florence to sell my wonderful items. I just want to share the story of two beloved couples who dearly love each other but it ended up in to sorrow.
In the year when the industrial revolution is starting, there are a lot of new things are going on. New structures are being put up, printing presses are starting to print news for the masses and passionate man and women are blooming. One day, I was preparing my stuff in a small corner in the dock of Sicily, I saw a pretty lady. This lady was so adorable, finesse, and well-educated; she is not just an ordinary lady, a lady of one court of Sicily. The lady’s name was Delanna. Delanna was the daughter of a duke in Sicily. She was walking in a busy hall of a fuzzy market where all merchants are there to sell their beautiful and elegant things that they brought from there provinces. As this lady walks to the market, he saw a peasant guy. Though this guy is peasant, he has a strong value of patience, hard work, and perseverance. The guy’s name is Lucio. Lucio was an orphan guy who lives by himself since the age of 15. These two persons had a different status in their lives but they have one in common, their principles in life.
During the mid-afternoon of God’s Sabbath, Lady Delanna decided not to go straight home. She went again on that fuzzy market to see what she could get on those merchants like me. As she walks to the fuzzy market, she was bumped by an infamous robber and took her purse. She shouted so loud so that she could get help from the market people. A lot of men, including yours truly, chased that infamous robber up to the end corner of the market. Luckily, Lucio was in the end corner of the market. He noticed that there was something wrong and the people were chasing someone. He saw that they were chasing the infamous robber of that market. He helped those men and finally he caught the robber and got the purse of the Lady. Lucio walked down to the fuzzy market to look for the owner. He found out that the lady was in a nice stall where a lady merchant comforts her because of that happening. The peasant guy went there and gave the purse of the lady. Before giving the purse the guy was mesmerize by her beauty. He never thought that he will meet a beautiful yet enchanting lady in person. As he gave the purse, the lady was so thankful because the purse was been returned to her. Before living, the lady glances on him but just a little bit.
Another day of working day, busy merchants, busy market and most of all new ships are on dock. Still the poor peasant guy is working for his living. The lady visits the dock to see the peasant. She looks around and asks everyone if they know him. Finally there was the colleague of the peasant told her that he was resting in their humble resting place. After asking that thing, the lady was accompanied by that man to their humble resting place. Facing the front door, the girl knocked and asked where the boy who saved her purse from that infamous robber yesterday was. One of his colleagues calls him. Finally they met up and talked. They could not imagine that they could talk so close without any status difference. They just talk and talk until they reach the noon. It’s noon already and it is time to eat dine. The lady invites the peasant guy in a fancy bistro, but the peasant guy decline. Delanna tried her best to persuade him and finally Lucio grant her invitation. They walk and look for a bistro to have their lunch. Finally they found a fancy bistro yet a cheap one. The lady asked for two seats, but the owner decline her request because of her companion. Finally they were granted because of the lady’s story of his heroism last God’s Sabbath noon. They sat in a beautiful banquet and waited for their server. Finally the server came, and they got their table-de-hote menu and tell their order. As they wait for their server to serve there fabulous meal, the owner gave them complimentary champagne for their food. Finally the food came and the server told to them that the owner will make their meal free because of the peasant’s heroism. They enjoy their meal and stay there as long as they want. It was mid-dusk and they did not notice that they should go back to their homes. They went out of the bistro and thank the owner for the food and champagne. They walked back to the dock and bid good bye to each other.
Night of work day and the road was lit by lamp candles, the lady went home with a smile on her face and twinkling eyes. The duke notices that his daughter went home so late and fulfilled. (Oh I almost forgot! The duke was a grumpy and iron-fisted man. He hates peasants and merchants). The lady went to her room to be clean by her nurse and set for a good night sleep. Before sleeping, surprisingly, her father visited her in her room and asks her a few questions. After asking those unusual questions, the lady went to sleep and think of him.
Another work day, same old thing, same music and same people are there. Delanna is there again to see her lover and talk to him again. They talk again all they long and it ended up in to a good relationship. Same old story, they Lady went home night of work day doing the same old routine that she has inside their magnificent chateau. The duke notices that there is something strange happening with her daughter. The duke decided to hire an emissary to oversee his daughter. The duke told to his emissary that he must not be noticeable by her daughter and other people. The duke and the emissary agreed to the contract and compensation.
The old days are passing by and they still continue their affair without noticing the emissary of the duke. One weekend, they meet in a beautiful commons where the lovers are always dating and staying. Delanna went there wearing her beautiful clothes that she has. As she looks for her better-half, she saw a merchant selling gold. She stops for a moment and bought a pair of gold rings. She bought the ring and continued to look for her better half. Finally they met up in the open hall of the commons. They talk for a long time, cuddle each other, and finally they gave gift for each other. They peasant guy gave a special thing that he got from her mother when she was seven and he kept it so that he can give it to her special someone that he will marry. The lady got her gift from her purse. She got the pair of gold rings that she bought from the gold merchant and she gave the piece to the peasant. After giving gifts to each other they went in a motel and they decided to make some romance. Without any further notice, the emissary of her father went back to report to the duke. The duke heard a lot from his emissary and finally he became well inform and well fed up with the information. The duke ordered his officials to capture both of them and send them back to the chateau.
Happy night of weekend for the couple who mend to be together and decided to marry on the next day, but a misfortune for the lady’s grumpy father who knows everything about them. It was before mid night when the officials came in the motel. The couple was so shocked and terrified of what’s going on. They were arrested and brought to the chateau. They saw the duke and the duke was holding a whip to punish the two. No explanation asked, the duke sends the peasant guy to the chateau’s dungeons and the lady was sent to her room and locked her forever. After how many months, the duke learned that the lady was pregnant. The duke called a doctor to abort the pregnancy of her daughter. Hesitantly surrendering herself, the lady was tied up to her bed and the abortion was done. Delanna was so sad about that event and she could not move on because of the pain from the doctor’s procedures.
Down to the dungeons, the peasant guy was so weak and nearly to his final breath, he was tortured by the lady’s father. The peasant was killed by the tormentors who have been paid by his soulless father. The lady learned from her nurse that her lovers was dead already, she wept all day and all night tied up on her bed still feeling the pain of her abortion wounds. After she wept, she saw a sharp material that the doctor uses for the abortion. She took it and unties herself and after untying herself she killed herself. The duke, her infamous father, learn that thing also. The duke was so terrified for the daughter’s death. Without any further announcement, the duke and the rest of the chateau workers give the lady and the peasant a simple yet meaningful funeral and they were rested in a lot at the back of the chateau.
What a sad love story eh! Why this suppose to happen to this two wonderful persons. They just love each other and they are the good examples of strong principles. I just want to tell you that love can be painful sometimes it is sweet. Not all of lovers like them are fortunate sometimes you need to face hardships and obstacles. I just want to say thank you for your listening to me and I need to go now. Aye! I need to move to another town to see other lovers whom their love is like Delanna and Lucio. So long my dear friends. This is Protacio and I am glad to meet you my friend.
Hi!
I'm Needle Heart Uchia. I am not a Japanese, I am a pure Filipino. Currently living at Toronto, Canada. Some people say that I am emotional with my writing but the truth is that that's my way of writing. My way of writing was like Shakespeare type but I put it in my own way. If your want to know my plot. My setting will be during the medieval times or renaissance period. It's either of the two. Sometimes I write just out of my boredom.
