service makes permanent

Fishers of Men

By: Needle Heart Uchia

After the congress, I and my other fellow sisters from my chapter and from Hamilton were being entrusted to our host for a night. As we arrived at our host’s house (tito Mel and Tita Lerma Ramos’ house), we just rest for a moment and a little chit-chat. As the chit-chat goes by Joy of Hamilton asked if we can introduce ourselves to our hosts. We do it starting with me, yours truly; though that I do have hoarse voice at that moment I still introduce myself to them. After the introduction, Tita Lerma Ramos as question to us that as of this moment I am still pondering on it because it’s a good reflection to me as a servant leader. The question was “Why did you decide to transfer YFL?”

Come to think of it, I don’t know what will be the proper answer to this question but there’s something in my heart telling me to continue my service. My heart told me you are the New Jonah that God was looking for. When my heart (I know that is God telling me that thing) told me that phrase and I start asking myself, Why me? Why I am the new Jonah? When he let me read the whole book of Jonah the minor prophet of the Old Testament, the whole book was the old me I turn back unto him do not so good vices; start being Emo thinking negative things in my life; and almost took my own life because of my earthly problems. When those things happened to me, I was being eaten by a big whale in my life. That big whale in my life was when I was being slain by a bad spirit. After that thing I made a vow to him as I had been called to be an anointed one to lead some people in my chapter way back in the Philippines.

Having a commitment or in other words service is not just being granted or for the sake of being chosen by other people to lead this people back to him. Being a Fisher of his Men is a great task for us who knows that we need to lead them. Like what Mr. Bo Sanchez said in his blog if we don`t serve we are not in heaven. In addition with that he also said to his bible that heaven and hell are just right here in our earth. If we do good things to our fellow brothers and sisters you are bringing heaven to their lives; in contrary, if you bringing bad things or doing bad things to them, you are bring hell to them. This means that being a fisher of God we should bring good things even though you are being hurt by others. If they smack you at your face give your whole body instead.

As we serve, we also get rewards. Not just earthly materials but heavenly rewards. As you do good things or serve him more you will receive abundance in your life but in other way around if you do bad things to your fellow brothers and sisters bad things will come back to you. Also as a leader we should not believe in luck, horoscope, or other superstitious things because you are God`s children not a children of superstition.

To end this thing up, just a small excerpt from a book that I`ve read after it`s movie fever. The phrase was being said by a vampire but it means to our service a lot here it is:

“And the LION fell in love with a LAMB”

As his servants, he is lamb and we are the lion who can be tame by him as we call him or even serve him.

“Lord, help us to be your faithful servant. Help us also to be your tame lion as we served you”

Utopia

Perfect World
By: Needle Heart Uchia

It seems to be that this thing will be impossible but there is one person who believe that we can change the world if we start the change inside of us and start spreading the news that we are one no matter what our race is, religion, and color. I know that this man that we idolize since then ( May he see the kingdom of heaven perfectly and may he rest in his paradise)do believe that we can change this world a better place to live to.

Honestly, I do really agree with him because even though we are different in colors, races, and beliefs but still we are one in the eyes of our creator. In addition with this, we are just equally rich in our creator's hands; however this time people nowadays are segregating themselves to other people. Somewhat some may agree some are not but let us face the truth that is happening to our world today. For example in the Philippines, though they are one in color and tradition but still there is discrimination. I am giving this country as my example because I know that there are a lot of Filipinos are being discriminated every single day of their living. I know that there's also a discrimination in different parts of the world but why do people always discriminate their fellow humans?

Another thing is why do people do not stop fighting I mean why they do not end wars? I think they just keep on thinking this is for the honor of my country blah...blah...blah....What a freaking thinking! They don't realize that there are a lot of people die because of this non-stop war. Remembering the war between Iraq and the US (spearheaded by George W. Bush, Jr.), It was a great shame for them because I was like a simple argument that can be fix through Peace Talks; unfortunately , they still continue the stupid war. I do not think that they are not thinking of what will be the consequences for the innocent people including the children who are living during those wars.

The another problem is poverty and hunger. As we all know that there are a lot of countries have enough food for their daily living but in some countries they are striving to have a food in front of their table at least for one meal. Why this thing should happen? I know that some of us just throw their excess in a trash bin or even feed it to their pets(For some countries). In poverty, in some countries, we can see people who are living in makeshift houses near rivers or streams. It is kind a painful to see our brothers and sisters in Christ living in a nice house striving for living.

This is a great disaster for this world. The world is being devastated by the scrupulous people who does not know how to see peoples perfectness. Currently, my heart is broken of what is going on to our mother nation. I know there are some leaders striving for a perfect world but sometimes they broke is because of some decision that they should make as a leader. I hope that one day we can see a lot of us are one, instead of holding guns or any other arms, we just hold tools for building houses, making farms for food, and share the blessing that they got.

As of this moment, I keep asking myself, when this freaking people stop looking others physical defects or even emotional defects to other people? When this world will be perfect? When will other people realize that we are one? I am still dreaming for a perfect world for my children and for my children`s children. Like what the man that I am talking about in my first paragraph, " Heal the world MAKE IT a BETTER place for you and for me and the entire human race. There are PEOPLE DYING if YOU CARE ENOUGH for living. MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE for you and for me"

WE ARE ONE!
NO ONE CAN HELP THEMSELVES IF YOU DON'T HELP YOURSELF TO CHANGE!
IF YOU CHANGE YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE.

Darkness in the world...

A World Full of Wounds
by: Needle Heart Uchia

These days,I do notice a lot of things that make our world bleed. I do not know why this circumstances happen but I know that we are being made equally and most especially with uniqueness. I know this is kind a ironic for a young adult to write down this circumstance but I want to voice this thing out because I know this is not appropriate. I know that all of us people here are aliens because the world (I mean the earth) belongs to the creator (I know that some are non-believers) but that's the truth. Some of us are born to be Christians and some are born to be in other religion.

In addition, we are also made in different colors and races and different ethnicity. I know that in different parts of the world especially where I grew up and learn things, discrimination prevails. I do believe that here also where I am currently living, discrimination happens too. I do not still know why discrimination should happen. I know that there's seniority when it becomes to educational status inside school, and even in the workforce. My question is WHY STILL PEOPLE IN THIS WOUNDED EARTH DISCRIMINATE EACH OTHER? this is kind a freaking question but still I know a lot of them will still do this thing.

This question kept on bugging me for ages; Not just only ages, centuries for those people who live in captivity. For me this world is full of darkness and other negativities that I can see. I don't know when will this filthy things will stop. To tell you honestly my dear followers, I am also part of those people who are being discriminated. I am being discriminated because of my physique, some negativity in my emotions, and my ethnicity as I apply for a well-paying job. I know that I am just being true to myself but still people discriminates me. That's why this question keeps on prevailing on my mind. I know that there's people do accept me but still I do feel that I am being discriminated.

Currently my perception in this world is this world is full of wounds and darkness. Furthermore, I always think that this world will not be as perfect as before. Like what the King of Pop's song "Heal the World" he always pointed out that we should make this world a better place for the entire human race who live in this big ball and yet that thing did not happened because of discrimination, war, hunger, super superiority, and other negatives that I can see, hear, and perceive. In his song also "Man in the Mirror" He also point out that each of us should start the change within ourselves but I know some of us are close-minded when it becomes to change.

Right this moment I am still wondering when will this change will start. I hope that I can see the light of change so that the next generation will see that real world that is full of acceptance, no one will be hungry and most especiall the utopia that everyone wants to see. I hope that time will come.

Solitude

Confusión en mi corazón

Escrito por: Needle heart Uchia

Nota para los lectores: I know that this is pure Spanish please bear with me because I am on a state where currently I am thinking Spanish and at the same time I am thinking English and Filipino. I am not so good Spanish speaker and writer I do use a translator so that my English writing will be translated into Spanish but some of phrases are being composed by yours truly. HAPPY READING…

Ahora mismo mi mente es un lío arriba. No sé lo que está ocurriendo en mi vida y el amor en mi corazón. Probablemente, todavía estoy a la vivienda dolor que he experimentado hace un año. Esperando ser sanado, este centro está situado en la preciosa suerte que me dio tanto. Pensé que le puede olvidar lo que yo hago muchas cosas pero no aquí. Actualmente, mi mente es mixta con dos lenguas extranjeras que sé que desde que era niño. No sé dónde tengo el coraje para escribir ahora. Esta bien! Esta bien! ¿Por qué esta jovencita mantener la reflexión sobre dos lenguas extranjeras, al mismo tiempo?

Recuerdo mi amore es muy hacer falla, pero este seniorita peparar perdonar y olvidar. Estoy dispuesto a conciliar con él y estoy dispuesto a enfrentarlo de una vez por todas. Tengo que reconocer que todavía amo a pesar de que tengo que dejarle ir. El amor parece ser complicado, pero que es parte de nuestra vida. Tenemos que ser lastimado y necesitamos también de enfrentar el dolor. No sé qué va a pasar con mi caótica vida sin este tipo que se llena la mitad de mi estancia allí que hago. Admito que tuve una falla, pero todavía estoy dispuesto a resolver estas cosas. Por que compadre? Por favor, dime lo que está mal.

Sé que tu todavía ver su Friendster si tiene tiempo, pero ni siquiera me da un mensaje en esta red social que conocemos. Mensaje que lo hago mucho, pero creo que estoy desperdiciando mi energía y mi idea de preocuparse por usted. Yo realmente se preocupan por usted, ya que se han reunido hasta la intimidad que tenemos con los demás. Todavía estoy en el dolor y hacer esta cosa ocultar mucho cuando estoy frente a mi trabajo, amigos y familiares. Yo ocultar esto a mí mismo. Cada día que me mudo a mi mente es flotante millas de distancia a preguntarse lo que está ocurriendo a usted.

Suspiro! Todavía no estoy en mí mismo. Yo ya había leído los testimonios que ya haya alguien pero no sé si es segura o no. Yo que cosa es cierta, voy a aceptar que con todo mi corazón, aunque mi corazón está sangrando mucho. Mi corazón sangra porque yo aún te amo. Sé que somos millas aparte, pero mi corazón todavía está en usted. Como los días pasan por este dolor me mata lentamente, pero segura. Tengo que reconocer que también me equivoqué. Sé que te duele tanto porque me fui tan temprano.

Sinceramente, ahora mismo no sé si puedo dormir dulcemente o no. Por favor, escuche mi grito! Escucha este corazón que sangra por ti! Si la suerte cambia, voy a estar siempre a su hermanita que se preocupa por ti.

Todavía confuso, pero ya he gritado mucho esta cosa a través de la escritura. No sé de dónde provienen de estas palabras, pero creo que mis ideas fueron dadas por Dios que yo hago la mayoría de la confianza.

“Hermano Jesús

Por favor, guía mi corazón, ya que se enfrentan al nuevo mundo de nuevo. De mayo, el chico que me gusta mucho escuchar mi grito como una nave en esta cosa a través de la escritura una prosa? Mayo de este destino o suerte será la suya a pie como yo con ustedes….Amen”

Song in my heart

Music of my Heart
By: Needle Heart Uchia

I sing a song of might
For my precious knight
I sing a song of love
because love do fly like a dove
Thou thy song will heard?
Nay it may pass

Sing a song glory
Sing a song of joy
because my heart leaps with gladness
Thy my heart will ply

Oh my savior knight, when you will come
I may not hold a stone
Thou this hand may you save
Because I know you are brave

I'll wait for you o my mighty knight
For I will hold on tight
I'll be waiting you on my castle
Because you are the prince in my heart

70's in the house!!!!

Refreshing Memoirs of Love
By: Needle Heart Uchia

It seems to be that recently I've decided to listen to love songs again. I don't know why. After my painful moment of my life, I promise not to listen to love songs again. It seems to be that it's been a year that I never listen to any love songs again but right now, I am listening to love songs again. Funny but true to me. I don't know what struck on my mind to listen again to love songs. Right now I am listening to one of the songs of the Bee Gees.

Seems to be that a year of sorrow turns into a great joy on my part. I don't know why. Honestly, pain in my heart still lies on my heart (as usual) and the emotional wound is still on my part. I know that it is right to move on but for me I need years to move on. Frankly speaking I can relate to the song of the Bee Gees' "To Love Somebody". This song was so strong that I cannot stop listening to it. For me, I don't know what is the feeling to love another one again. I know that I am still thinking of the past but for me it is mix emotions.

I don't know what is the real sense of love as an individual. *Not as a servant* For me, service is different from being just an ordinary individual. Love is everywhere and you cannot resist it. I am still hoping that one day of my life there will be love again in my life. I know that God will bring me this person that I am waiting for. I will not find him, I will let him to look for me. Even though that seas and oceans are apart still I will wait for him.

To Love Somebody (Remastered LP Version) - Bee Gees

Lite way/heavy way

Thousand Questions
By Needle Heart Uchia

It seems to be that this time my life was been cultivated again, but I am not saying that I am not prepared for that scenario of my life. It's hard to say when life will cultivate or bury in a wisp of air. Hard to predict what will happened on this life, but it should be done. Ungratefully but I have to face my fear again; a fear of long lasting goodness of this unlawful love. This time I was bothered of a lot of things. This things was composed of thousand questions that I do not know if this will be answered or will be left out hanging in a certain area of a cliff.

Though I was moving on, but still it was been cultivated. Right know I have a lot of questions to ask, but I do not really know if this is right or wrong. I know in school if you ask your teacher there's nothing wrong about your questions because your learning. In reality, there will be a great teacher who will tell you that your questions is whether right or wrong. Full of unchaste questions on my mind but I need to hold this things. I rather question myself first before questioning others. Right now I am in the middle of nowhere but still I have a great guide from up above.

I could not tell when will be the possible moment of my life can I ask this questions to a certain person. Still hoping for an enchanted time for me to ask this questions that right now is occurring in my mind and in my heart. Feeling anxious this time, I need to move and have a lot of things to do. Life seems to be unfair for all of us but we need to face this trials and fore fold this trials in our life. Probably we do have a lot of questions but we can keep that thing in our heart or lift those things as we move on.